Certain things best left in the past

The rollercoaster

This weekend was a truly a rollercoaster ride. Being sensitive and a sponge for all things becomes this game of hopscotch not trying to fall over or hit the wrong field.

First I dealt with exhilaration from meeting new people at a meetup, followed by tiredness and a hangover which left me in a bad mute mood for my surroundings. Then to transpire the next day into happiness and excitement to then only hit rock bottom after the excitement despite realising I have outgrown a friendship like a pair of old worn sneakers which should have pleased me!

I just wished I knew how to even out the dips to a state where we are not talking Japanese rollercoaster but the Brighton one.  As the sensitivity and emotional rollercoasters trigger my GAD.

Being sensitive and a sponge for all things becomes this game of hopscotch not trying to fall over or hit the wrong field.

 After a few setbacks and the rollercoaster

Dealing with disappointments in terms of things not going my way. I am bravely trooping on. I have been trying various things for my GAD, which is being triggered by disappointments which are inevitably unavoidable in life!

As advised I have downloaded a sleeping app that works very well, as I find the pitter patter of rain very calming and sleep-inducing.
Speaking about my trials and tribulations to my mother helped, as she had valuable advice as to what worked for me as a baby. Dealing with me as a crybaby that screamed for hours on end is a challenge for any parents nerves and forces you to come up with all kind of tactics to silence it.
Some of the suggestions worked but some I have outgrown. It was worth trying them though. Talking openly about issues and not keeping silent means not missing out on valuable advice and bonding possibilities. Let us face it if you do not have mental health issues it is hard to understand a person with. Like I could never imagine being an amputee.

Like I could never imagine being an amputee.

Mental plasters and tourniquets

White noise, storms and motors of machines still have the ability to calm me right down. My weight vest from fitness has been abused to weigh me down in bed.
So you will find me donning socks, headphones and a weight jacket in bed. What I want to say with that is do not be scared to try things out. Who cares, whatever works for you.

With all the flaws, up and downs I have – I have never felt so much myself and in tune. I accept I have my battles and faults but with loving admiration towards myself, strength and positive features. I see my flaws with a loving eye and I treat myself with even more love.
No more beating myself up, no more victim. Just strength, confidence and most of all acceptance!

I accept I have my battles and faults but with loving admiration towards myself, strength and positive features. No more beating myself up, no more victim. Just strength, confidence and most of all acceptance!

 

 

 

 

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Sarah

#mentalhealthambassador All the ruminations on this page belong to moi. I am not a certified psychologist or psychiatrist. It is not my intention to force my opinions, ideals, ideas upon you or tell you what to do. This page was created to inspire you, enforce you and hopefully guide you. I am a on a quest to self-fullfillment for a happy, healthy, sporty and adventurous life. By being curious and open-minded I encounter myself, others and the world that sorrounds me in ever changing ways that inspire me. I would like to help reduce the stigma still clinging to mental health. The vessel I choose to transport my message is this blog. This Blog is love and a lot of soul. It is a journey through my realm. A soul striptease. My focus lies on a healthy lifestyle and the awareness movement. To see the change be the change!

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