Let the chaos reign
After getting multiple lectures on how my concentration is not adequate and receiving stick for things I forgot, mistakes that were made. I found it quite refreshing to have the flaws of that person in the spotlight today. For me, my failings then fell short as I came to the conclusion that many of mine were linked to this person and their inefficient work ethics and behaviour.
Instead of letting myself get put down or sucked into the vortex of this person chaos. I rose above and kicked ass!
I am glad I did not have to deal with people like this when I was depressed as I would have not been equipped to handle these sort of people. I always find my concentration impaired and myself running at half the CPU power when depressed. People without a depression somehow cannot understand how much everything is a chore, even concentrating. Even little tasks seem like taking a hike up Mount Everest. Your brain is slow, foggy and unresponsive due to the constant thought loop.
For me today was a sign I getting back to normal. Do not get me wrong it was an effort but I rocked it and won!
For all you out there
I found that when I am depressed and my concentration is impaired that I am even more hypersensitive to sound than I already am. Pink noise or noise cancelling headphones help. It is important to try to help yourself and build up an arsenal of things that you can utilise for your benefits. I call it the box of wisdom – where you place all the things that help you deal with your illness or your daily life. The best thing is it is not limited to one mental illness.
The most important weapon you need is yourself and your attitude! Except that sometimes we do not function as wished by either yourself or society but that does not matter! Cut yourself some slack. Work on getting healthy again. Learn what works for you as a help and utilise it to reduce stress.
Be Kind. Be Focused.