To my readers
Sorry for the absence but I needed to take a time out for myself to get my head around things. As all the stress the last few days has made me feel a little detached, down and frustrated. Dealing with an injured arm, a building site, operations, the grief, relationship issues, a friendship collapsing, building a new meet up group was a little much.
It never rains it always pours as my mother would say….
The grief I was trying to ignore, now it is starting to break out in bouts at the most inappropriate of times. I do not know if my ignoring it is not working or if this is part of the process in the sense of delayed onset? Anyhow, I am doing the only correct thing there is, accepting it and letting it out even if that means crying on the bus. Locking away my emotions is what led to my OCD.
As for the building site, actually it is finished but as anyone who has ever dealt with a building site knows, for the next few months there will be things creeping up the whole time. Frustrating about it was having to manage every little detail as the architect and the project planner had not thought the design trough consequently and had made any possible error one could have made.
Taking a timeout?
I had contemplated doing a hike to air my mind till one of my friends so kindly pointed out that my plan had a flaw. It would actually mean taking leave to do it. Firstly google will only give you the route in exact hours not taking in account sleeping or the fact that I presumably cannot and will not be walking more than 10 hours a day. With that being said a 250 km hike would mean I would be walking for approximately 9 days. So no hiking for me right now, which is sad as I had really fallen in love with that idea. Detox from people, phones and other rubbish.
I will find the time eventually to do this detox.