I have followed the advice given to not be a doormat, which besides the little hiccups is working a treat. I am focusing on myself and ignoring those who treat me with ill contempt. I am not denying the fact that there are the moments that are hard as they sneak back into your mind and I feel an intoxicating drag but thank god they swiftly disappear when I decide to dance, let my emotions flow freely and express them. That is my output, my catharsis.
I decide to dance, let my emotions flow freely and express them.
What is the point of games? Some people use them as entertainment, which is just sick, childish and petty, others have their own problems and cannot really figure out how to navigate their own personal minefields. Then to be honest you should not be dating.
Mr’s idea was to give me guns in form of allowances, which in return he hoped I would end up shooting myself with. The funniest thing is it turned into his own personal noose. By ignoring him as a punishment I just realised I can live fine without him. Ignorance as punishment has the opposite effect it frees me. The less I see and hear you the less present you are, the less interesting you are, the more I forget you subsequently you vanish into the background like a past memory till you are erased. I am sure I am not the only one who functions the same.
The funniest thing is it turned into his own personal noose. By inoring him as a punishment I just realised I can live fine without him.
Glad I am here
When it comes to my own sanity, I am glad about where I am. The fight and journey, all plights and successes have paid off to get here. It all becomes so obvious when things go wrong. How far I have come. I feel myself again and reincarnated. This is the first year I feel like myself again after all those years of depression, OCD, death, loss and anger.
I have found my solutions to solve my issues when they arise now. I will have still have to come up with a remedy or even better a prevention in case the same shall arise at a later date, but with a little help from my psychologist, I hope I will manage to find the solution.
Here is my list of helpful aids:
- Talk to friends
- Do sports – channel the anger
- Dance off – let the emotions out
- Go out – do something nice for yourself
- Love yourself – You are GREAT the way you are
- Ignore bad behaviour or they learn you will accept bad behaviour
Find out what works for yourself and treat yourself with respect. You deserve no less!