I try to enjoy every moment in life and really suck up the good especially following the years of despair. If anyone would have told me I would feel this way again, I would have not believed them. It took a lot to get here but now I finally am, I am content within myself and my life even if it is not perfect.
When you are depressed or suffer from anxiety life seems to have these layers of haze on them. It is hard to see past the veil of negativity that covers you. It all has this greyish tint and dusty feel. Surpassing this mindset is a trial, as it sucks you in and drags you down. It feels like a lead belt that is keeping you deeply underwater. Managing to fight your way out can only be done by breaking the mould/mindset in small portions.
All the effort and work that went in was the same as losing weight, you lost some, you gained some and the change came in spurts. The last year was like I am on the last one hundred meters and they are just dragging on. When will this stop? Will this ever end? Sometimes I was at the end of my tether with the situation but my mantra has always been never give up. This is when you really need perservence and endurance, but it all pays off in the end. It is like a sunrise. Remember a day when you stayed up all night and unintentionally you saw the sunrise. That is the exact feeling you come out with at the end. A warm, loving and happy feeling. A forgiving and a thankfulness. The nice thing is it always feels like this. Everytime you battle your way out of a mental health crisis. That is the thing to remember and to hold on to when dealing with one.
This is when you really need perservence and endurance, but it all pays off in the end. The nice thing is it always feels like this. Everytime you battle your way out of a mental health crisis
Change the game
The other thing is, you will actively have to force your mind into a more positive mindset in stages. Your mind is a powerful tool and having the wrong programme running in the background can really sabotage you. How perceive things influence your choices and behaviour, which will then influence your life and the way you handle things. The more positive you try to be the more things will shift towards the better. Your attitude will also help your convalescence if not even drive it.
Be the change you want to see!