I surpassed my limit for the selfishness of others. I have taken pride in being thoughtful towards others and kind, but currently, I am overthinking my decision for being that way. I have started to feel like a doormat and I am not having it.
What is the point to read my blog and hold contact if you want to be superficial? Some people are a mystery in why they do the things they do. Maybe it is time to reconsider my choices in humans. I could have sworn that since I am vastly normal, I choose normal. Seems to be a misinterpretation from my side. It just fills me with anger at how blind I can be. I know in life you have to take risks and sometimes you get rewarded and sometimes you will get smacked in the face. That does not mean it will make it easier with knowing this. As one of my best friends says humans will be humans, they are idiots. At this point do I agree.
Luckily you can choose. If someone does not treat me the way I want what is the point of engaging? As much as they disappoint me maybe I should just consider binning them for my own mental sanity. As I have found out there are plenty more people that really appreciate me. So why sell myself short? No worth!
I honestly wonder why I sell myself short? We all do in some form but why?
I am honestly contemplating not bothering with exciting people as no matter what gender they are they just disappoint. How do you handle sucky people that do infinitely not really know what they want? Honestly, I would love to know from you readers how do you deal with these kind of people? What do you do when you realise someone does not deserve your devotion?
I am soooo over it!
The voice of wisdom
I hope at the end they are right, that through persivierance we end up where we are meant to be. I will not be accepting anything less then to be treated like a princess. I had lovingly put a lot of effort in and only got have hearted appreciation, which I will no longer stand for.
My friends other theory is that self-deteration is what is leading this. I do not know. Supposedly we attract it. So their solution is lock the door to those kind of people and find niceness. Be kind to yourself. Be gentle with your thoughts. I am supposed to protect myself knowing I will not let this happen anymore and to find comfort and strenght in that. Apperently those tweaks should will change a lot of things for me. But what do you do if you think people are nice and they turn out different than the picture they deceived you with?
Why is everybody so damaged and jaded? It seems worse than a decade ago.
My advice to all the damaged sort your own shit out before you try to date other people!