Vacant, Exhausted and Neutral

Brain not working…..

This weekend I decided to take a slower pace and ended up more exhausted after the weekend than when I kept going. Mind you probably burning the candle at both ends is finally catching up? Maybe it was the subsiding energy mixed with the relaxation I don’t know. I am not used to having a vacant, no stress, fearless composure. The last few years were a rollercoaster of emotions with an underlying constant stress. Maybe being myself again has eradicated the anxiety and all the emotional turmoil of the past has left my soul in need of recuperation and relaxation.

What do you do when you are empty?

I accept it and am just glad to be. It is a little like being an innate object but I like it. It feels so pacified after all the madness. If and when situations like this promote themselves then just flow with them, switch your mind off take a downtime and accept it as a treat, as in this hectic world we do not embrace the time out enough anymore. There is always something we should be doing or someone we should be meeting and if not we artificially construct something to fill our time.

The poison is in the dosage

It is an art form to master getting the measurement right of activeness, relaxation and tasks. We all have things that need to get done. Those should be done first just so they are a. done (excuses always arise) and b. fun things can be enjoyed (no nagging conscience). After doing the tasks that are considered work, do something fun reward yourself with something relaxing or active that you consider fun. There are some things that might fall into the category fun and task at the same time, in my eyes they are rewards too as I enjoy the task, i.e. for me grocery shopping. Just also be aware to take timeouts where you just relax and lounge not just pursuing the active treats.
You should try to get a balanced schedule, a bit like a varied diet too much of anything is not good. I try to plan my week and weekends, but I also choose a lot of space for spontaneity as I enjoy deciding based on my mood. My friends are not too pleased with the newly discovered spontaneity they half-heartedly accept it. At the end of the week, you should be able to look back and say it was a productive but also an enjoyable week.

You should try to get a balanced schedule, a bit like a varied diet too much of anything is not good.

So this week I will be relaxing more than usual and just being.